Will the real you please stand up! will the authentic you please show up! when you feel like your going to have a breakdown of sorts and you are exhausted and just not feeling yourself. You are feeling like you are crumbling at the seams, know you are shifting and evolving into someone who is…. and always will be you.
Never let your lips say, this was the worst year ever! let it be over! I say this because although it may feel like this is shit! Shit happens all the time and it’s how you deal with it that matters and it is here to teach you something, only seeing the negative will make you miss or even forget the great thing’s, the beautiful moments, the simple pleasures and many moments of joy you just forgot them in all the crazy shit that made you feel like you were sinking, yet you were really just learning to float and fly.
For me 2018 was a year I felt like I was a stone throw away from a nervous breakdown, yet I can smile because so many things happened, so much change happened. Peoples true colours were revealed. I was made redundant and closed down a business the weekend after I moved, living out of a suitcase and living with family that I haven’t lived with for many years. My stress levels were high because I just couldn’t sleep. I had a stressful work situation. Being made redundant, with moving and I can’t tell you what came first the decision to move or being made redundant. My eating habits became very emotional and my health suffered. Yet I am here writing that I felt physically tired, mentally and emotionally drained and it was still an amazing year with crazy experiences. There will always, always be many more happy times but we have to have our perception right. My heart sees and values those good things nothing is bad, maybe difficult, life changing yes, soul building and a lesson always learned.
A year is 360 days, each year is going quicker than the last. 2018 Started great with doing small detoxes, eating lots of fruit, going to the gym and yoga. Beautiful weather and going on my holiday to the Coffs Coast NSW and Port Macquarie, It was such a nice time. The beaches are beautiful, the food was lovely, Belliagen ,markets all the sun. We even already Booked a holiday to Bali in September in January. We don’t usually do that. You see so many good things to smile about and be thankful for and that was in January. Great food, lots of warm sunny weather on holiday with myself, my Husband and my mum. It was nice and relaxing. Just bellow are some photos of my holiday to Coffs Coast and Nambucca area and Port Macquarie.
Sometimes when things happen you quickly forget the good things. Well by June we were thinking of moving “maybe.” It was just a thought and only that because we lived 5min walk to the park, beach and water, where we thought of moving was far and not ruel yet having some ruel qualities. This we were thinking that it might be easier for my husband as he had been travelling a lot for work. Then I found out that I was going to be made redundant. Luckily I had warning and I was thinking this is the push I needed. The reality just took me by surprise and it all happened at once. Moved house area closer to country, yet still close to suburbia. mins from shops , Closed a business and transferred to another store for a month or so. I now was living out of a suitcase and was staying my brother and his wife for half the week then at home. I wasn’t sleeping at all and work was kaotic and crazy it seemed. I had my mother and brother move in with us and I just wasn’t coping. You know when you are just tired and your shoulders are really saw and you feel the weight on your shoulders. Too much to soon and dealing with people that were working against you not with you. Made me feel like shit. I got through it and thanks to those who gave me support, when I needed it. That made me smile and it warmed my heart.
So you think that everything is going to crash because what you where doing for years, no longer is. No routine, living with family that you forgot was to difficult to do. So many things happening and how can I smile when I feel a bit lost. Well smiling is always a good idea because others suffer more and there is always a light at the end of the tunnel. 1st thing I couldn’t look for work because I was going on my holiday to Bali and I was looking forward to that so much. I guess it’s what kept me going 10 days in Bali. So I had finished working in mid August. Our wedding anniversary and we went to Bowral for the night and it is less than an hour away, bonus! It was lovely. I started painting and you know I have never done the art thing. I enjoy it and need to do more as I have neglected it. I had time to explore my new area and that is what I did.
Now it’s time for our holiday!!!! So excited. All packed and ready to go! Then we got to the airport and then it happened. That crazy shit got bad! NOOOOOO. Even though our passports where valid, they were under 6 months so we couldn’t board our flight. I was devastated, so frustrated because I tried to check in online and had trouble, be careful when booking flights online.It should a requirement to put details of your passport. So we had to store our bags with our airline and they were kind enough and it was 8am in the morning. So we headed to straight to the office to get new passports, photos etc. We were so lucky because usually you can wait up to 3 days for a new passports and we got it in 4 hours, I have to say a big thank you to the ladies that helped us. Thank you. we booked flights for the next day at an extra cost $3000 including passports, before we even left, yet we were leaving for beautiful weather and quit of Ubud Bali. So when we picked up our luggage we decided to stay close and booked a hotel near the airport.
Oh Bali I needed you so much! I am happy that our delay didn’t cost extra for accommodation, massage and dinner and I had booked meditation at the Pyramids of Chi that they happily exchanged for another day. Thank you. I highly recommend that you go to Ubud and The Pyramids of Chi Wow! amazing!There is the standard sound meditation that we did twice and we also did Acoustic Bioresonance which was Amazing and I feel it helped with everything that had been happening.
Acoustic Bioresonance is a next generation sound healing experience developed by certified sound therapist, artist, and musician, Laurent Suara. I highly recommend you visit this place, as I know I will be returning.
In Ubud we stayed at the Adiwana Akira Resort and it was beautiful, all the staff were amazing and they’re all friendly, helpful and an asset to the Adiwana. Thank you for making our stay wonderful. The resort is a little further out of town and nice and quiet. I just adore Ubud. Next time I think I will stock up on more fruit because fresh food is fruit. The Balinese people are very hospitable and everywhere we went in Ubud was nice. The food isn’t necessarily cheap when going to fine dining, yet when we ate alone without friends it was very well priced and very nice, yet I would never do a decostation at 8pm again as we finished at midnight I think? We were taken to a wonderland at the Mandapa Ritz Carlton, which was lovely, yet we didn’t expect it, It was a very memorable experience, we did enjoy everything about it, the food was delicious and the setting seemed like it was a location from the Indiana Jones movie. There are many places to eat and we ate in town and at our resort and it was all very nice and a good experience. We didn’t do much other than some shopping and the Pyramids of Chi which we had a coffee and juice before heading into town. Then into our private pool a few times in the day. Bellow are pictures of our Resort/hotel and underneath are pictures of the Restaurant at Mandapa Ritz celebrating a friends Birthday. So you can do as little as you like or a lot. So go and enjoy.
After staying in the beautiful city of Ubud in Bali we left and traveled to Seminyak for 7 days. If you you are going to Bali a great guide Is Putu Yudha with his tour and airport transfers Yudha Man Bali Tours he is a very friendly person and a great man, we highly recommend him for any and every service, Find him on facebook. Now in Seminyak we stayed at a hotel Villa that was close to our friends for 5 nights and silly me did not read reviews and this Place just changed names, so I will not recommend it La Villais Kamojang Villa Seminyak it is run down and lacking a lot of love, also we, my husband and I got food poisoning on our second last night there so it was not a good experience. There are great little boutiques. I will return. Yet our last 2 days we didn’t have anything booked and 2 days before we were going to check out I started to look for something and jackpot I came across this gem that just had opened Balissimo Suites Seminyak the manager was of great help and he is friendly and very helpful. I couldn’t get to pay before because an issue with online payment and food poisoning that rendered us bedridden, a bad memory that lasted the whole day, LOL. We will return, yet my husband doesn’t seem to think so. pictures of Ballissimo Suites and the amazing sunsets we were blessed to experience with ourselves and friends. So yes there were ups and downs and we spent much more because of the things that happened. Yet so many good things happened and I am truly thankful for all of those things. I came home and it took a while to find work yet when i did it was 2 different jobs at the same time. Some pictures of our time in Seminyak and Balissimo Suites, highly recommend them. So many great restaurants and cafes to enjoy. So enjoy when you go, as I know you will.
So if you focus on the bad it brings you down, yet if you focus on the good, the great and the amazing or beautiful. You have a lot of amazing, wonderful moments to reflect upon. So my year that tore me up and down and almost I almost got caught up in all the crazy things. I just took a deep breath, I then took myself through all the wonderful moments and realized that life is to short to dwell on shit that happens! and It’s alway, yes always the great things that hold us together, bring us to be grateful because other will suffer more and have less. So always know you have something to smile about, something to be happy for, great memories to cherish and great lessons learned, great stress and challenges that you got through. Life is short, make a life of good memories, challenges that strengthen you. Love is always going to give you abundance, so always fill it with love.
Just when you think it’s all too much, life throws you a curveball and shakes you up because you can handle it. Life is always in motion, so hold on, let go, have faith in yourself. Ask for help if you need it and it is there, always. Let love guide you to your next adventure, that is life. One great amusement ride of ups, downs and curveballs.
Loving life one moment at a time.
Renae,
Lotus Flower . Live 